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       今天偶然间看到仓央嘉措的几句诗——那个可以通心灵的人——六世达赖，那个不羁的浪漫诗人。让我很自然的想到曾经痴迷的弘一法师——李叔同，都是僧人，亦是诗人，只不过一个为爱挥手断佛缘，一个毅然入佛门而已。

      依稀记得在辛亥革命失败后他写的《南浦月》：

      杨柳无情，丝丝化作愁千缕。

惺依如许，紫起心头绪。

谁道消魂，尽是无凭据。

离亭外，一帆风雨，只有人归去。

现在我真的越来越不了解自己了，昨天还想just breakaway，今天就告诉自己life is so beautiful，好好生活，我都不知道哪一个才是自己真正想要的，也许这就是双子座的悲哀吧，永远都有两种或以上的需求与选择，而且似乎都合情合理，最终~~~

曾经很想忘记过去，一切从新开始，为此不止一次去弄了头发，表明自己从头开始的决心，可是往往在还没开始的时候又责怪自己，自己的过去怎可能忘的了，何况自己本来就是一个恋旧的人！！（现在好想那伙朋友啊！！！！可惜要考试了，五一又不能回家！！）

我发现我整天就在发牢骚~~~~~

   When you down and lost, and your only friends all have better things to do, and you need a helping hand! When you are upset and lost along the way, just tell yourself, I will be okay!! Now thing are only getting worse, and you need someone to take the blame, and there is no one to share the pain, it’s really painful inside.

   Now I like staring out my window, dreaming of a could-be. And if I’d end up happy, I would pray.

   Trying not to reach out, but when I’d try to speak out, feel like no one could hear me. Wanted to belong here, but something felt so wrong here. So I usually pray, I could breakaway! I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly. I’ll do what it takes till I touch the sky. I’ll make a wish, take a chance, make a change, and breakaway...Out of the darkness and into the sun, but I won’t forget all the ones that I loved.